hiya down there.Â We’ve just been for the scan.Â Are you ok?Â I hope so.Â Still not sure.
We went to the clinic and I managed to scull about a litre of water in the taxi on the way from work because I’d forgotten to drink a bunch beforehand.Â You’re supposed to have a full bladder for the first part of the examination to make it easier to see.Â Well, I’m not sure that much of it made it to my bladder but I had drunk so much I felt ill.Â My own fault.Â Next time I’ll be better prepared.Â I met your dad at the clinic and we went in to see the technician.
We were there for a ‘dating and viability’ scan.Â But apparently they do expect you to know such things as the exact day your last period started, and how long your normal cycle is.Â So the ‘dating’ and viability part only works out if they know approximately how old you should be.Â And I really don’t know.Â Basically we could see a dark area which the technician said was ‘a pregnancy’, but it was difficult to gauge if everything is going ok, or if its not.Â She thought you were a size that indicated you were about 5 weeks old, which didn’t quite tally with the dates I thought about.Â They date you from the first day of your last period, and since I’m not 100% sure, it was a bit difficult.
The short of it is that you’re only about 5 weeks old, or you’re too small for your age.Â Its a bit scary.Â You are in the right spot though, there is a gestation sac that you look like you’re in (though we couldn’t see you, just the sac).Â So I’m pretty worried.Â We tried to work backwards again, but its hard to work out exactly when I had my last period, because I had just had an operation, we went on holidays, and all of those things (read – mum not so good at keeping track of things like dates and regularity of period etc.Â I mean really, its annoying at the best of times, I try not to think about it or let it impact my life as much as possible).Â Optimistically, I definitely had my period on the 13th, so by that measure you are only just 5.5 weeks old, which tallies with how big and developed you were on the scan.Â But I thought it was a few days before that.Â I thought it was more like the 8th, which puts you just over 6 weeks… I guess its only a week, and your Dad thinks that maybe you floated around looking for a comfy spot to land for a long time.Â Sometimes it can take up to 7 days, he’s read, so perhaps you’re just a young 5-6 weeks.Â And perfectly sized.Â I hope so.
Anyway, I’m going to keep eating well for you.Â We already have an appointment with the GP in 5 days time, on Monday, and we’ve optimistically made an appointment for another ultrasound to see how big you are in two weeks time.Â I hope you’re ok.
love you!Â (even though you’re tiny).